Posts Tagged brandy rai
Black Tuesday 2010
Aug 21
Today is the 3rd anniversary of the passing of Brandy Rai. Rather then spending it getting wasted, I had a chance to hang out with a friend who kept my mind off of it.
Even with that being said, I did spend some time with his ashes today, talking to him as I normally would [...]
Happy Birthday Brandy Rai
Jul 21
Well, if Brandy Rai was still alive, today he’d be 17. He passed away 3 years ago in August. I miss my little boy, I always and forever will be waiting to see him again.
Black Tuesday 8.21.08
Aug 21
Today is Black Tuesday, the one year anniversary of Brandy Rai’s death. I took the day off and spent it doing normal things, trying to stay distracted from the reality of knowing I don’t have him with me, that I won’t have him again till I’m gone.
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oh boy
Jul 22
Tomorrow, 7/23, is Brandy Rai’s birthday. He’d be 15 tomorrow and I really don’t know what I’m going to do. I’ve been dreading the day but not nearly as much as I am 8/21 when he passed away. I’m off tomorrow and will likely see both my doctors, go to the range, then come home [...]
relapse
Jun 20
Sometimes I feel like I’m barely treading water, my conscience fading in and out, unable to stop what’s happening. My life spins in and out of control. It’s like a never ending self inflicted nightmare. I can’t stop myself, I can’t control this circle of shit and I have a hard time influencing the outcome [...]
Not Fathers Day
Jun 18
Well, another fathers day has come and past, and another fathers day has come and past that I didn’t bother to call my father. Save it, I don’t want to hear it. Having a conversation with him is a waste. I’m sure it means something to him in his scrambled brain, but it’s just not [...]
RIP Brandy Rai
Aug 30
Last Tuesday night, August 21st, 2007 @ 11.35pm I had to put down Brandy Rai, my 14 year old Maine Coon who was the love of my life. He was suffering very badly from fluid in his lungs caused by a failing right side of his heart. There wasn’t anything they could do for him, [...]
For my BR, I walk beside you
Aug 22
Lyrics here, video below:
There’s a story in your eyes
I can see the hurt behind your smile
For every sign I recognize
Another one escapes me
Let me know what plagues your mind
Let me be the one to know you best
Be the one to hold you up
When you feel like you’re sinking
Tell me once again
What’s beneath the pain you’re [...]
Source
Aug 7
Do you see me there? Do you understand anything I say? Can you hear me? Can you see me? I keep asking but you don’t respond. Do you not think I can feel? I don’t understand you and you don’t understand me. I just want your love, to be loved. Take care of me, take [...]
