I Accept The Pain, Yours and Mine |2021

Accept The Pain, it’s all the same. This pill is mine. This life is all the same. It comes and goes, like a pain washed away like a flood.

Paradise Lost, what haven’t you taught me? Yet another classic song from the old-schoolers with slick chops and catchy lyrics. So sayeth this not so slick, not so catchy guy.

So there are two parts to this, I think. Definitely maybe, possibly potentially something but I’m not sure. Not so sure at all.

Part one (1) is that I have a friend who is going through cancer treatment, and I wish that I could accept the pain for them. Even if I can’t. But I want to, I seem to enjoy it.

We are old friends, and I care about them like family. And it hurts that I feel helpless, much like themselves, and struggle to see them in pain. It made me think about this song.

The thing is, in the time I’ve known them they’ve seen me post knee surgery, four (4) of them at least. Jebus, how sad is that? I can measure how long I’ve known my friends by how many surgeries I’ve had.

I wish them not the pain they are suffering as they go through chemotherapy. I wish them not the pain they will continue to endure, I wish I could accept the pain for them.

Part two (2), I am a pain junky apparently. I have accepted pain for as long as I have been. I’ve taken on all of the knee surgeries (all six of them), the physical issues from the ACL tear in the 90’s.

I’ve accepted all that pain. I’ve taken it like a champ. I guess 300+ hours of tattoos should tell me to STFU. Just read the site if you think I need to dictate all that I’ve born.

My pain rap sheet would be a mile long. It features a lot of knee stuff, a lot of self-inflicted wounds, mental trauma, and psychological warfare burns.

I said this tonight to that cherished friend, the inspiration of this post… “I do not know where your path would have led me, but to the end, it would have been. Not the why, but in the end, it’d been how.”

Sorry, fatalistic this human can be.

Like a pill
Like a pill these dreams
Like a pill
Kill almost everything

Like a drop in the ocean
Life’s a drop in the ocean
Like a pill it’s all the same

Accept the pain, for all who ever tried
For all who tried

Overkill, Overkill it seems
Overkill, Feeding off all extremes
Loyalty through emotion
Cruelty kills devotion

Accept the pain, for all who ever tried
Accept the pain, as all our fears subside (our fears subside)

Like a pill
Like a pill these dreams
Like a pill
It’s all the same, it’s all the same

Accept the pain, for all who ever tried
Accept the pain, as spirits purify (purify)

And yes, I know that Youtube is Killing Videos – 2020