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There was a time in my life where I didn’t know where I was. I wasn’t independent, I wasn’t cerebral, I was adrift in a land of disappointment and failure. Then came a time where I collapsed inwards and felt like I had lost everything.

archival II

Was either thinking or reading about something, likely a quote about how we move in life. That made me think about a really great segment in Octvarium, section V called “The Razors Edge”. The song has long been a favorite…

relapse

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Sometimes I feel like I’m barely treading water, my conscience fading in and out, unable to stop what’s happening. My life spins in and out of control. It’s like a never ending self inflicted nightmare. I can’t stop myself, I…

angry clown

In this cloud of conscienceness, I am without understanding of how to rid myself of the turbulence that paralyzes me and destroys my life. Constant motion of rotting misery and alcoholism, trapped in ice, left to die in this glass…

lost symbol

In the garden of death, flowers bring the desperation of a million souls. No contention can ease the desperation of grasping for life like suspending ones self from a cliff, never intent on the spiraling disillusion of the life that…

misunderstood

Most people dream at night, often never remembering them. That’s pretty normal. When people try to describe those dreams that they do recall, they never make sense to anyone but the dreamer. I dream at night just like everyone else,…

me

“Right and wrong are just words, it’s what you do that matters.” “Sometimes you’ve got to be wrong and learn the hard way.” “Dignity is showing your worthiness when others are undermining you.” “Just when you’re through hanging on, you…