The 3 Time Amaze Disgrace |2020

What is a Amaze Disgrace, aside a fantastic song by 3 (the band)? It’s a summation of me, how I feel.

I got to see 3 in 2008 twice, along with my most favorite Dream Theater. Ok, I saw them because of Dream Theater. Neatly enough, both times were in Florida with my buddy Brad.

Yup, THAT! Brad. The one I bought the NSX from. When he picked me up at the airport, it was the first time driving in a NSX. Who knew I’d end up buying it?

I talked him into going with me to see them on May 31st, 2008 in Orlando, FL at the Hard Rock and then on June 1st, 2008, in Tampa, FL at the Ruth Eckerd Hall.

I have to note, the show in Tampa was a lot better. Maybe the seats, but much better overall. I will also note, Between The Buried And Me was really amazing.

For most of my adulthood, I’ve felt like I was a failure. I was the loser. At least from a relationship standpoint.

I am blessed with two fantastic sisters, no complaints. The problem is that both of them have only been married once to their respective partners, each married 20+ years.

Me? I didn’t even make it 2 years. I cracked, broke apart, and my ex-wife and I did the legal dance of money and splitsville.

She’s a good human, I often note that we are still close friends and talk frequently. Just as long as there are 1k miles between us, we are good. So many jokes.

None of which are about me being such an Amaze Disgrace. I don’t want to refer to Fry, Futurama, and The Story of The Grasshopper and Octopus | 2020 as the backdrop.

The thing is, I’ve always felt like the disgrace of the family. Not just with my marriage and divorce, just in general. I was the black sheep in a family where everyone loved black sheep.

I wasn’t a bad person, I didn’t do bad person things. I didn’t graduate high school on time, I had to go to summer school after my senior year. That was more fun than you can know.

But that doesn’t make me disgraceful. It’s just, for the longest time I’ve had negative reinforcement from my family for the things I had done to myself, physically or fiscally.

Being the disgrace of your family has to be hard, it’s the only way to learn, for others to learn. While my notes are short, my pain is written in ink, many hundreds of hours worth.

I won’t even go into the relationship side of being such a disgrace. In my case, since my divorce the longest I’ve dated someone is 4 months. In 15 years the best I could manage is 4 months.

We are all disgraces in our mind, in some sort of manner. It’s just how we deal with it on a day-to-day basis that really marks the amaze part.

[Verse 1]
Amaze disgrace
How sweet the sound
Of footfalls in
The underground
And rise my children
Come and play
The perfect earth
She’s been blown away

[Chorus]
And don’t you fear it
When you hear it
Stirring down below
Don’t you get that’s
How it lets itself into your soul?
These walls are too thin to hide our screams

[Verse 2]
Amaze disgrace
Oh how sweet it is
Your life’s blood bleeds
Along your wrist
And rise my children
Come and see
The perfect earth catastrophe

[Chorus]
And don’t you fear it
When you hear it
Stirring down below
Don’t you get that’s
How it lets itself into your soul
These walls are too thin to hide our screams

[Bridge]
It was a night like tonight
So many years ago
I was drawn towards the light
Held on too tight; could not let go
And rise my children
Come and play
The perfect earth
She’s been blown away

[Chorus]
And don’t you fear it
When you hear it
Stirring down below
And don’t you get that’s
How it lets itself into your soul?
And don’t you fear it
When you hear it
Stirring down below
Don’t you get that’s
How it lets itself into your soul?
These walls are too thin to hide our screams

[Guitar Solo]

[Outro]
Amaze, disgrace
Amaze

[A minute or two of silence, followed by an alternate version of “Trust”]

Gentlemen, how’d you get up there?
How you gonna get down?
Sweeping all the search lights above
Over the ground
And I shudder to think
That this is the catastrophe
That fate has in mind
And now buried are the feelings still alive
That you’ll never find

They stopped digging for you long ago
My sacred soul, it won’t be long

Boderline, and I cannot keep still
Your enemies have trained you
To wear a smile as you kill
And now buried alive
You can’t deny
That worst of all
The joke was on you
Now you’re scratching out a silent goodbye
With just a candle in a coffin and

They stopped digging for you long ago
My sacred soul, it won’t be long
Look into my eyes
At the price I pay
Watch them fade away
Still the beat goes on

They stopped digging for you long ago
My sacred soul, it won’t be long
Look into my eyes
At the price I pay
Watch them fade away
Still the beat goes on

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