My Lasting Memory Of You |2021

This is a special posting for a special person. Someone for which I have a rather long history and one that has intersects that just never quite matched up. You will always be more than a memory.

In writing this, my now first post of 2021, what I have chosen as my topic is a song by Redemption, called Memory. It is off the The Origins Of Ruin album from 2007.

I had long recognized the song to be for the late, great Monster and in recently listening to it it seemed apropos for this person. So this goes out to you, you know who you are. And no, this isn’t a Sapphire post. Although…

I hope you know and understand that you are more than just a memory but an actuality of my life, and while I wish it could have been different so many years ago, I value you now as a human more so than I probably ever would have.

Ok, that sounds a lot like I’m talking about Sapphire, but I promise that this isn’t about her. Again, although…

OK, back on point… You are a wonderful friend, confidant, somebody whom I trust and believe in. Thank you for being such a wonderful and amazing friend. I hope that in time that I can do the same.

Frozen In The Moment is one of my most favorite live shows. All of the tracks hold strong meanings to me, and I often write about them here. I can only encourage one to check their stuff out, well written.

I still remember the sound of your voice calling out my name
And I still remember my face examining itself, knowing things would never be the same
I still remember your smiling face across a crowded room
And I still remember, through the weathering of time, that first embrace that sealed our doom

Your eyes stare at me, from every storefront
And your voice calls to me from every restaurant
And your laughter pierces me when I stand beneath the open sky
And your absence murders me as I sleep perchance to die

Seems like to escape is what I ought to do
But every road I take brings me back to you

I am frozen in the moment
Clinging to your memory
And I don’t want the ignorance
That a spotless mind would bring
But I’m scared my dying breath may be your name

It’s just like I sang to you – everyone knows that we live in a world
Where people give bad names to beautiful things
And if it’s really true that people should leave once they’ve
Got what they came for, I certainly hope that you’re holding it close to you now

I am frozen in the moment
Clinging to your memory
And I don’t want the ignorance
That a spotless mind would bring
But I’m scared my dying breath may be your name

I still remember the sunlight on your face that warm November day
And I still remember, my heartbeat quickened by desire, unaware of prices I would pay
I still remember the closing door the night we said goodbye
And I still remember, losing you for good and knowing that a part of me had died

Seems like to escape is what I ought to do
But every road I take brings me back to you

I am frozen in the moment, please do not forget me!
Clinging to your memory, ’cause I will not forget you!
And I don’t want the ignorance
That a spotless mind would bring
But I’m scared my dying breath may be your name

Please! Let me be frozen in the moment
Let me hold on to those memories

And I pray that things will be alright
And I pray you’ll think of me tonight
And I know somehow I’ll be alright
And I hope that you’re the same
But I’m scared my dying breath may be…your name

This is intentionally at the end… You will always be that which I wanted, and didn’t yet get. You are such an amazing human, and I’m glad to have known you for so long.

I will always have that image of your ass as you turned and walked away that afternoon. That is the last time I saw you in person, that is my memory and that will never go away.

It’s been a pleasure and honor, my dear.

-K

ps -> Those three paragraphs, that’s exactly the ending to Sapphire IRL.

And yes, I know that Youtube is Killing Videos – 2020