Kind of a overall aspect view of how I’m feeling, the rut/funk I feel. And yet it’s not even that time yet, maybe it’s anticipation of the coming month between Brandy Rai’s birthday and the anniversary of his passing. That month, 4 years now, has been rough, very rough, on me.
I will add that I know BR was the last that I truly loved and that I doubt I’ll ever love like that again. It kills me that I feel that way, I so much want to find a love like that, but sadly, I’ll likely spend the rest of my days alone.