relapse

Sometimes I feel like I’m barely treading water, my conscience fading in and out, unable to stop what’s happening. My life spins in and out of control. It’s like a never ending self inflicted nightmare. I can’t stop myself, I can’t control this circle of shit and I have a hard time influencing the outcome of this game that seems to keep ending badly for me. I’m trapped inside a of ill mind, no winners, only losers …

Oh well, at least at this rate I’ll get to see Brandy Rai sooner …. :/

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