The bitter end is that I didn’t get to go to the show.
Since Sister Machine Gun is a long-time favorite of mine since 1996 to be exact, but I don’t recall exactly how I was introduced to them.
Then there’s this bitter end. I was supposed to see them for the 2nd time in Chicago, 2 February 2002. I noted it in my post, To HELL With You, You Don’t Control Me |2021.
And in that post, I said “Maybe one day I’ll write about it.” That was stated on 2 January 2001. Well, here we are. It’s only taken me four months to get to it.
I had purchased two tickets (below) to see them at the Metro in Chicago. The plan was to go with my then-girlfriend (and now ex-wife) to see them and making a little trip out of it. After all, it was a weekend show.
But the trip never happened and that was one of their last shows before eventually folding nearly 10 years later. I’d suggest that they really folded in 2004 but that’s not for me to decide.
That was a bitter end for me. And end of hope, the beginning of a new darkness. That could actually be about the time I started listening to Moonspell.
Sometimes I write in one shot, doing the whole post at the same time. Other times I will write in small blocks as things pop into my head over a period of time. And a period of time this one is.
But sometimes it’s a little more interesting than that. Or at least it is to me. I’ve noted time and again that I write for myself and when I write about music, it’s a feeling that I have at that time.
This was an interesting situation. It has nothing to do with what anyone that knows me, or perhaps has read this blog once or twice, so stop with that shit. It’s not about anyone but me, like usual.
This bitter end is a place in my head, a space in my mind. It came out because of something in my personal life, pertaining to my ex-wife. Nothing bad, but of note to avoid confusion.
And while I don’t specifically talk about shit from my personal life, that is for clarification purposes.
And that’s the bitter end to things. I get to live with it, you get to wonder about it, and no one cares because fuck everything and everyone. In a nice way. 😉
Check out the Youtube video for Sister Machine Gun – Bitter End.
I’m in the middle of a big frustration
I’ll do anything to just bring it down
You know I never needed any conversation
I mean, I’ll take anything to bring me aroundI’m beside myself like I’m someone else
That is living in the back of my mind
Every day I see what I cannot be
Loneliness has got to leave me behindDon’t do anything for me
That I ain’t what I’ve got to be
And I’m here again
Down in the bitter end
That’s a place I cannot hide
And it’s eating me inside
And I’m here again
Down in the bitter endI’m in the middle of a big-time nightmare
And the voice of reason is lying to me
It seems I never need to be the big-time winner
And the way I got here is so easy to seeIt’s a big mistake but I’ve got to take
Everything that is coming my way
It’s so easy now but I don’t know how
I can make it through the end of the day
