Taken from an interesting conversation with my ex-wife, this is what happens when apathy takes over and you become so apathetic that, screw it never mind.
There is a certain point where ignorance and apathy cross and I have hit that spot after having been fucked over so many times by so many corporations that I really just don’t care anymore.
And I know that that’s the bigger picture problem, where I don’t care. I’ve become so apathetic about everything, not just career, that I think I am destined to fail.
I don’t feel like I’m going through a midlife crisis but from an existential view, one could argue that I am. But I also am continuing to fight against apathy.
The apathy has gotten to the point where I don’t care about much of anything and the boys I do care about. But I quite obviously have stopped caring about myself.
And if that means I am not going to succeed and will have to take a new career field like being an Amazon delivery driver, I just…
I am okay with the fate that I believe that is going to befall me and I have been prepared for a long time for the inevitability.
Most people don’t want to hear this type of language from a loved one, a friend, a family member. It is rather dark, but then again if you read this blog, boom.
